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There are hours and there are hours, beloved. And this is an hour to mark and to remember.1 This is, as it were, a final hour, an hour when there is yet opportunity to turn back what Saint Germain has described. Unless the spirals are begun and continued mightily from this day forward, you will not see renewed opportunity for mitigation of world events.
Therefore, I appeal to you on behalf of your brothers and sisters of Light2 who suffer in many nations under the Darkness of the powers of this world. And [these powers] in their brutality, their massacring and their maiming of the bodies [of the Lightbearers], in the very glee of hell itself, take the light from the blood of their victims.
This, beloved, comes upon those who are saints. It comes to them as opportunity for that ultimate sacrifice. And they give their bodies in the love of Jesus, in the love of my heart.
May you know that you in your own way are giving so great a sacrifice. For you, my beloved, give your bodies to me in prayer - in scientific prayer that does avail very, very much3 day by day. Therefore we preserve your opportunity, your protection, your place in the sun.
You stand for many who have fallen [beneath the weight of their karma], who are not in a position to know how to give the scientific prayer. You stand for many who give their bodies ultimately as they are tortured and tormented in their houses, in their places of worship.
Yes, beloved, you give no less sacrifice when you do give [scientific prayer], but sometimes the very protection and circle of light that we afford you does give you an unreal sense of world suffering. It is far away from the Mount Zion, far away even from the etheric octave, whose hem and garment you touch.
Thus, beloved, it is good that you see the films and the news and equate with what is happening to peoples everywhere upon earth. It is good that you understand the desecration of [Yugoslavia, land of] the shrine of Medjugorje. Yes, my blessed ones, you are holding the counterpoint of Light, the counterpoint of Light here, which shall stand and still stand.
See how the fallen ones attempt to murder the image of the Mother. See it, beloved. For the desecration of woman upon earth and of the soul of man and woman as the feminine potential of being has been the infamy of the fallen ones of all ages. Therefore, with all of thy getting, beloved, go after the fallen ones who desecrate the body of the Mother and her child.
I, Mary, have come to many places in the world in this and previous centuries by dispensation of the Father-Mother God. I have come again and again. And therefore you should understand that I have fulfilled the calls of the righteous and the unrighteous, the profane and the believing: "Why does God not intercede? Why does he not stop this and that crime and violence?"
I have come. I have interceded. Those who in devotion have established and strengthened their tie to my heart have been conductors of my blessings to all the world. Those who have denied the fount of my being and my coming and my reality have rejected the tie to my heart, have not received me; therefore, I could not give to them blessing.
You understand the tie that binds, through the devotion of prayer, the unascended soul to the ascended one and to God. You know that that tie must be fulfilled as you allow the eye of the needle to receive the thread of Love from above and as you therefore allow that thread to be sewn through your heart, where you supply the return current, the thread that returns and makes the loop - one loop of unbroken communion with saints in heaven and Archangels and Archeiai such as I.
Yes, my beloved, God has fulfilled the challenge of the dark ones and the prayers of the saints.
I have come. I have come in these long centuries and I shall continue to come. For the coming of the Woman clothed with the Sun is the dividing of the way by the sword of the Spirit. And according to [each one's] reaction to my presence, beloved, they receive Light, else that which they have is taken from them.4
So it is an hour of the judgment and the Divine Mother does bring that judgment. And therefore, in retaliation for the judgment that I have brought upon the godless of these East European nations and the members of the Soviet Union, they have done this to that [chosen] place: [Yugoslavia]. It was foreknown, beloved.
I AM the dividing of the way and I precipitate out the Darkness in the dark ones. And thus the saints become tenfold saints and the fallen ones experience the weeping and gnashing of teeth as they are outraged as the Darkness returns unto them again and again by the Light of my Son and the right hand that he does raise and allow to descend in this hour.
Inasmuch as it is the hour of the dividing of the way, beloved, I say: Let it be the dividing of the way within you! Choose what elements of darkness, what human habits you are able to surrender, and [then surrender] them as an offering of sacrifice for the saving of those who have much karma and whose karma will weigh them down to levels of purgatory and the astral plane unless some come forth as the intercessor.
Are you not fattened on the Light, beloved?
Is there not some Light that you can spare and some habits that you can cast into the flame simply to show that you are willing to strip yourselves of the fat of human self-concern for the greater concern of the Oversoul of the Divine Mother of the entire planet for her children?
I trust your answer will be ... ["Yes!"]
Beloved hearts, I am also a leader of the armies of heaven, for I come in many roles. You whom we have called this day, to you we say: We shall not leave you, nor shall a thousand, ten million saints of heaven. For we have gathered upon this mountain for that confrontation.
We rejoice in all that you are and all that you have determined to become. We rejoice that there is indeed a place prepared by God and by you that is protected and sealed, from which you can send forth missiles of Light piercing the Darkness. Let it be so, that the dragon5 is taken even before he awakens with the full wrath of his being.
It is not alone the leaders of the West who sleep in that slumber of desiring to believe the Lie. It is also those [leaders] in the East, those in the Soviet Union, who, beloved, are so confident of themselves in this hour that they can hardly contain their glee. Thus, in a moment of pride and of believing that they are invincible, they, too, shall know that they are ultimately vulnerable. They shall know it when it is too late, [even as the leaders of the West shall know their vulnerability when it is too late]. All things shall be too late!
Thus, there is an attempted moving of the map and the components of the map, but nothing has changed, beloved. And, as Saint Germain has told you, they march on to their appointed goal.
How wondrous is the conspiracy of God, conspiring to save every living soul that is a part of his own Body! How wondrous is the greater victory of God, the greater love, the greater reality, the greater eternity! How wondrous is opportunity in this moment!
When I come to this place, beloved, it is the place of my rest and repose from going out and appearing to the many, who understand my visage as the tears flow and even the blood. They understand through that image not only the sorrow of the Mother but that the body of the Mother in the earth is desecrated and is also martyred, even as the child within her body is aborted.
So, my beloved, I know surcease from pain, for how can I do aught else but rejoice at such a company of devotees - you who ceaselessly pray about all of the conditions that Saint Germain and the Darjeeling Council have called to your attention.
Know, then, beloved, that this altar is for me, as well as for you, a haven, [a holy place for] a coming apart, a surcease from the burdens and the sorrows of the world. The hour of my coming, beloved, in the hour of the Wednesday Watch is my moment in the week when I come here and I am a part of you, and I place my Presence over you during the rosary as Jesus places his Presence over you during the Watch.6
Therefore, there is a mighty interchange by the figure-eight flow from my heart to your heart. I receive you, you receive me and there is an exchange of garments. And what you are able to absorb, then, of my Electronic Presence does sustain you for the next round of the seven days, seven days of re-creation in the flame of the resurrection, the flame of your immortality. Know, then, that as we bear one another's burdens of sorrow, [so we bear] one another's burdens of Light.
Is this not the comfort and the consolation of the Mother and her children? ["Yes."]
So know, beloved, that I AM here and I AM there and my Electronic Presence is over the statues that are honored and in their proper place and care throughout the earth. However humble the altar or crude the statue, by the devotion of the heart of the child or the elderly or those busy with the cares of life, I place my Electronic Presence [over that statue].
When you utter the words "Hail, Mary, full of grace," immediately I arc my Presence over you as the Mother Ray. And as you by your devotion fill in more and more of that Light week upon week, blessed hearts, you shall know my strength in your body, you shall know the immortality of the mind and the spirit, you shall know a certain lightness [in order that you might] bear a certain world heaviness, you shall know what it means to be stepping in the sandals of an Archeia, and you shall know that putting on immortality is a certain gradual process that you [ritualize] day by day by day.
Be strengthened in my Presence. Pause to listen to my heart communing with your heart. Pause to tell me, if you can articulate it, what is your sorrow, what is your burden, what is your joy.
Yes, my beloved, there is a great silence in the cosmos and it is indeed a moment of decision and of release.
Now in this hour I personally serve you Holy Communion, for I would give to you of my Body and of my Blood in all levels of being.
Think of me in the hour of Jesus' birth. Think of me with him through his childhood, teaching him, raising him up to be the fullness of the glory of God. Think of me at the cross, at the tomb and at the hour of the resurrection. Think of me moving on and Jesus also moving on. Think of me in the hour of my ascension and in all of these moments, beloved. For there are my footprints. My Electronic Presence is there that you might step into it.
Therefore, that you might know the tremendous power of the bread and the wine and of Jesus a part of that bread and that wine and of myself a part of that bread and that wine, [I come]. For to know that power, beloved, is to sense the invincibility of the Godhead and yet to retain the awareness of one's vulnerability so long as one occupies these bodies of flesh and blood.
God is invincible, beloved, and God is in you! So long as you remember that God is the invincible one, you may claim his invincibility. When you begin to think it is your own, it is then that you are most vulnerable.
O Jesus, my Lord, thou the All and I the nothing. O Jesus, thou the All and the allness of God and of my soul, occupy the vessel of my nothingness that, as Above, so below, I might manifest thy glory.
In the name of thy Blessed Mother, Mary, Amen.
This prayer I give to you that you might retain the cosmic perspective of so great a salvation.
Therefore, I now call the Communion servers to come forward. And I ask you to prepare the film This Is My Body, This Is My Blood.7 And as you come forward to receive Holy Communion, you may watch this film and understand the miracles of the Eucharist and the power and the presence of Jesus upon the altar of God, which is so consecrated by his presence in that Eucharist.
[Communion servers bring the bread and the wine to the altar.]
I, Mary, focus of the Mother Ray of God, as in heaven, so on earth, in the name Jesus Christ, Lord and Saviour, do bless this bread, this wine with the full manifestation of the Body and Blood of Jesus Christ and of my own Light Body of Alpha and Omega.
Take, eat. This is my Body, which is broken for you. Drink ye all of it, for this is the wine of the new testament of the kingdom of God.
[Holy Communion is served during the showing of the film This Is My Body, This Is My Blood.]
I know you have been profoundly moved by this film as I have been. How it has enlivened my understanding of Communion!
I would like to invite you to sing songs to Mother Mary as you ask her to repair any breach between your heart and the heart of Jesus and his Church Universal and Triumphant.
I ask you to ask Mother Mary for all healings and for the understanding of how important it is to be a communicant of our Church, as the dictations have told us. Each one of us is the living Church and, as we make that commitment and that affiliation and we share in this sacrament, we are daily assimilating the Body and Blood of Jesus Christ.
Jesus said, "Except ye eat the flesh and drink the blood of the Son of man, ye have no life in you" - no life at all. He is our life because we have lost the tie to his heart. Having lost that tie, we have no independent life of our own. You see, in some the threefold flame has gone out. Because Jesus keeps that flame for us and allows us to pray that his Sacred Heart become one with our heart, making his heart our own, he is truly our Saviour and our Lord.
Jesus has come to save us and his salvation is through the alchemical marriage of our soul to his Sacred Heart. This bonding, this everlasting union, comes through the Path and the challenge that Saint Germain and Mother Mary spoke of today.
So I invite you, one and all, Keepers of the Flame, to start the new year by becoming communicants of Church Universal and Triumphant and knowing yourself as the white stone and even the pillar in the temple. This is our great strength - the Communion and the becoming of the Body of God.
I am asking Mother Mary to heal us of any breach that would separate us from the fullness of the giving of our hearts to God in this holy work and in this Church that God has given to us in this age.
The narrator in the film asked a most pointed question: "Who will he raise up in this age to represent him?" My answer to that question is: We must all respond and say, "Here I am, Lord. Send me!"
Won't you meditate upon all these things that we have heard today as we have our love offering. An hour and a half after the conclusion of our service, I will return. When you have all returned, we will be sounding the battle cry in this our greatest labor of all, truly our labor of greatest love.
Jesus says, "What do you want?" as he said to Thomas Aquinas. And we respond, "All I want is you, Lord."
[song 94, "Ave Maria," and song 97, "Hail, Holy Queen, Enthroned Above"]
Messenger's Blessing of the Love Offering:
To Touch the Hem of Thy Garment
Beloved Mighty I AM Presence, beloved Saint Germain, Lord Jesus Christ, Blessed Virgin Mary, receive us by the Power, Wisdom and Love of the Trinity of the Holy Family. By that Holy Family, O God, seal us in the Father, the Son, the Holy Spirit and the Divine Mother. Consecrate us in this hour unto the victory of the battle.
O God, we are grateful for thy presence and the presence of Jesus Christ in each one who has partaken of Communion this day. Thus, we understand how we may celebrate our immortality every day of our life.
O God, you have given to us so many ways to touch the hem of thy garment and the fullness of thyself to receive. Even as we walk the earth in the burdens of our karma, O God, we know the glory of the resurrection, so great a salvation!
Therefore, multiply our offering many times and our hearts' love that the light on the holy mountain of God shall be seen and known by all as the love of thy Body, thy Blood, thy Spirit, thy eternal Life.
In the name of the Father, the Son, the Holy Spirit and the Divine Mother, Amen.
Almighty God, receive our hearts and our prayers and the light of this release. Seal it in the Causal Body of Lord Maitreya and the twin Causal Bodies of God and Goddess Meru. Seal us in the armour of God, the full power of our Deathless Solar Body.
We are ready for the victory, O God! For without the victory, there is no prize.
This dictation by Mother Mary was delivered by the Messenger of the Great White Brotherhood Elizabeth Clare Prophet on Sunday, December 29, 1991, during the six-day conference The Rapture of Divine Love held at the Royal Teton Ranch, Park County, Montana. Preceding the dictations of Saint Germain and Mother Mary, the Messenger led the congregation in devotional songs and a Child's Rosary to Mother Mary. Earlier in the day, the congregation viewed the film Marian Apparitions of the Twentieth Century: A Message of Urgency (see p. 10 n. 7 for film description and ordering information). [N.B. Throughout this Pearl, bracketed material denotes words unspoken yet implicit in the dictation, added by the Messenger under Mother Mary's direction for clarity in the written word.]
Praise the LORD for Archangel Michael!
I want to witness to several miracles that occurred in my life before and after I became a Keeper of the Flame. I am grateful to beloved Archangel Michael. Praise the LORD for his protection always!
I was born in the Ukraine in a small village called Michajlovka, which means "Michael's." I call it St. Michael's.
In 1941, when the Germans started bombing our village, we didn't know how to protect ourselves, so men from the village dug up a trench and covered it with dirt, creating a makeshift bunker. When the bombing raids came, we ran into the bunker and sat on the floor. During one such raid, a bomb that exploded close by collapsed our bunker and buried us there. The neighbors came running and quickly dug us out. Praise the LORD for Archangel Michael!
The Germans came in 1941 and stayed until 1943. When they left, they took us along with them to the concentration camps in Austria as a labor force. We traveled overland by wagon train for about two months to connect to a train that took us to Austria.
When we arrived at the Dnieper River in the Ukraine, we camped for the night. That evening, an announcement was made that two wagons could cross the river now and the rest would cross tomorrow. My mother jumped up and said to my stepfather, "We are going to cross the river tonight!" My stepfather didn't want to, so she grabbed him by the neck with such force that thereafter he wore a scar.
She again said desperately, "We have to cross tonight!" The poor man was very tired but he pulled the wagon and managed to get to the barge. We crossed the river safely and camped for the night. In the morning we heard that the Russian partisans attacked the camp overnight and killed many Germans and Russians. The partisans believed that fellow Russians would prefer to die rather than go to a foreign land. Again, we were spared. Praise the LORD for Archangel Michael!
We were then packed in a cargo train and taken to Linz, Austria. En route we endured one night of heavy bombing at the Vienna train station. By God's grace and Archangel Michael, we were saved! Near Linz, the women and children were put in a concentration camp in a town called Grunberg. The men were put in a separate camp. The men worked as a rescue squad, digging through rubble after bombing raids.
My mother became pregnant just before entering the camp. At her seven-month point of pregnancy, she became sick and received the camp director's permission to stay home the next day from her job at the camp bakery. That next day, a bomb fell on the bakery and killed everyone inside. My mother and sister were saved! Praise the LORD for Archangel Michael!
A few months after my sister was born, an air-raid siren sounded in the camp. My mother (carrying the baby) and I ran to look for someplace to hide. I was seven years old and pulling my three-year-old sister along by the hand. Two other young girls were running nearby. My mother yelled at the two girls to come with us as we entered an empty building. The girls ignored her and ran to another building further down the road. Sadly, a bomb fell on that building and killed them. We were saved again by God's grace.
Praise the LORD for Archangel Michael! If it weren't for Archangel Michael, we would not have made it through the two and a half years at the concentration camp and the running for our lives.
After the war concluded, we lived in Austria for five years before being allowed to emigrate to Sao Paulo, Brazil. There, we waited ten years for permission to emigrate to America. On February 26, 1959, we entered this country. Since then, I have always waited for something to happen each February 26.
In February of 1975, an older gentleman whom I met on a bus gave me a Pearl of Wisdom by Lanello. I didn't know who Lanello was, but I loved the Pearl. This gentleman also gave me a gift subscription to the Pearls of Wisdom. The first Pearls I received from my subscription were by beloved El Morya - "The Chela and the Path" series. I knew El Morya from the Rosicrucian teachings. It was a joy to my heart to read these Pearls.
In October of the same year, I received a flier with Mother's picture that announced a three-day conference in Washington, D.C. When I saw her face, I knew that I had to see her. As I walked to the registration desk, a young man handed me an application for membership in the Keepers of the Flame Fraternity. I took it without question and felt that I had to become a member of this wonderful organization, which I knew nothing about.
When I learned that Archangel Michael was real, I cried from happiness. I realized that he was the one standing by my family during all the trials of World War II. I am so grateful that tears roll down my cheeks whenever I think of it.
On August 26, 1986, I was taking my sick stepfather to the hospital for an X ray when I was struck from behind by a car on the highway. This caused my car to spin and swerve into the oncoming four-lane traffic. All I could do was to call to Archangel Michael as the car crashed into a heavy concrete partition. I was knocked unconscious for a moment and my stepfather's head went through the windshield.
As I awoke, I found the traffic stopped and my car pushed to the side. My stepfather was standing beside the car with a bleeding forehead. By the time the paramedics arrived, he was gasping for air, and he died en route to the hospital. I had received bruises and stayed only one day in the hospital because my mother needed care at home. I was spared again by God's grace and Archangel Michael. Praise the LORD for Archangel Michael!
Dear Mother and Lanello, accept my heartfelt gratitude for your bringing to us the Teachings of the Ascended Masters. I didn't mind the crossing of the "bitter sea" to get here to find this precious gift.
Praise the LORD I AM THAT I AM!
In order for you to understand what a remarkable experience my brother and I had during a conference in California, I must describe my brother a bit first.
My brother is an honest, loving soul who decided, when he was studying physics in college, to be what I call a "scientific materialist." He felt that any experience such as a vision that couldn't be independently verified by other people was essentially worthless. He was particularly skeptical of so-called "religious experiences." He and I had many arguments over the matter but finally agreed to disagree.
Years later I was introduced to the Teachings and moved near Camelot in California to be on staff part-time. On March 30, 1983, at the Conclave of the Friends of Christ, Archangel Gabriel gave a powerful dictation in which he declared war on drugs. In his dictation, Archangel Gabriel said:
I am speaking now in those cells that have been afflicted by the chemical substance of marijuana. I am speaking right to that substance. I AM the binding of its consciousness. I AM the flushing out, by Light, of the residual substance in the astral body, the etheric body and the mental body and in the chakras and in the delicate nerve cells and in the brain cells!
I am speaking to it. I am driving the power of Light into every Lightbearer on earth who has ever partaken of these substances!
The next morning, I received a phone call from my brother, who was living in Texas at the time. My brother said he had called to tell me that the night before he had had what he could only describe as a "religious experience." He said he hadn't been able to sleep and at around 2 a.m. he had an incredibly intense experience in which he realized that any use of marijuana at all was not worth the risk of negatively influencing his young sons, should they ever see him use it. He said he had determined to give up marijuana permanently.
You can imagine his surprise when I informed him that Archangel Gabriel had declared war on drugs in a dictation the same night he had his experience. I told him he most assuredly had been visited by an angel.
If you or a loved one needs a miracle to be cut free from any kind of drug dependency, send for the audiocassette of Archangel Gabriel's dictation. You can play the tape and repeat the words with the Archangel. Whenever a recording of a dictation is played, the Electronic Presence of the Master is present, and that action can be invoked and accepted on behalf of oneself or loved ones who need intercession. Archangel Gabriel, March 30, 1983, on 90-min. audiocassette from Conclave of the Friends of Christ album, $6.50 plus $.52 postage, B83066.
"O Lord, Please Help Me through This!"
I was urged by a dear friend to write this testimony and in doing so I only hope I can do justice to the loving mercy and awesome power of our dear Father-Mother God.
I found the Teachings in 1988 when I moved to London. For the previous nine years my life had been going through a rather intense dark cycle, which resulted, thank God, in my being able to set aside my ego for long enough to listen to my soul. Having walked on the verge of madness for years and after trying every available sort of help I could uncover, I finally bent the knee and turned back to God, actually to God the Divine Mother.
As a child who had wandered far away from home and gotten completely out of her depth, I started to cry for my Mother. Having been brought up a Catholic, I searched out my grandmother's rosary beads and carried them with me always. To stop the plague of my thoughts, I kept one thought in my head at all times and repeated it over and over again: "O Lord, please help me through this!"
So, newly arrived in London, I stayed with my brother. I confessed to him that things had gotten so bad that I was praying. He answered that this was an interesting coincidence because he had just discovered the Teachings of the Ascended Masters. He handed me a booklet of decrees, stressing that I must read them out loud at least once a day. After I had gotten over my initial British reserve for doing anything out loud, the decrees began to work in my life.
I had had systemic lupus for nine years. Besides being thought of as incurable by the doctors, it is a depressive illness. I did the violet flame decrees because they made me feel happy - for no other reason. After a while I found myself sneaking away from my desk at work to do the decrees.
At the same time my brother (praise God for his sweet soul) told me about the macrobiotic diet and offered to pay for me to go and see a consultant. When I told the consultant about the diet I had been eating, he managed to keep some semblance of composure but I suspect it was a struggle. So, armed with a new diet sheet, I stocked myself up with lots of food, half of which I could hardly pronounce - let alone cook - and that night I set to work to cook my first macrobiotic meal.
At the time, I was living with a flat mate who had shelves stacked with "goodies" and for a moment I felt quite downhearted as I prepared my millet. ("That's what birds eat, isn't it?") However, the elementals must have been lending a hand because when I tasted the food, it was delicious and I could feel my body breathe a huge sigh of relief. Heaven knows how many embodiments it had waited for this!
Within three days my life was transformed. I used to be so tired after work that I could hardly walk and would cry with fatigue. Now I was bouncing all over the place. I won't say it was all such a love story - seaweed took quite a bit of getting used to! - but now I have reached the stage where I actually prefer this food to any other. Praise God.
As I write this three years later, the illness has fallen from me, whereas once I was racked with pain. And my face wears a smile, whereas once I had forgotten how to laugh. I would never have dared to hope that this could be. Indeed, I never even thought to ask God for this, as the illness seemed so vast in my mind that I thought it would be with me always.
Sweet ones, I hope this story has given you even just a little glimpse of God's love and mercy, which, I know, is ready to shower down over each and every one of us.
"Seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness ..." was a verse that came often to mind. As years passed, the hunger in my soul became more intense. The churches and religious school I had attended did not fill that void.
One course in school was the "Life of Christ." Everyone seemed to laud that class. So there I sat waiting for that special something, but it didn't happen. What was wrong with me? The miracles seemed only a reiteration of what was already obvious.
Then came that still small voice: "Miracles are based on scientific law. If you knew this law, you could work this miracle too." Wow! Too bad I didn't pursue it then, but I kept feeling there was more to the Bible than we were being taught.
I never could accept the idea that we wouldn't be able to understand the Bible until we passed away. I reasoned that if that were so, then why were we given the Bible in the first place?
After praying and reading scripture almost daily, I didn't seem to be making much headway spiritually. This concerned me. I asked myself: "If Jesus is coming soon, am I ready?" I knew I needed changing and so did the world. The thought persisted that God could teach me.
There came a time when I felt I had suffered all that one soul could. I had often called for truth and help but saw little response, at least in the manner I wanted to see it. Then came a biggie - an old flame showed up at the door. Now I was sure I had missed the boat. It compounded my problems and I spent two more weeks in sheer misery and emptiness, but it acted as a catalyst.
To find some measure of hope and sanity, I turned to God. I called loud and clear for clarification of certain passages in scripture that had puzzled me for years. I was determined to understand.
Suddenly it seemed that the top of my head opened (I didn't know then about the crown chakra) and I knew angels were rushing to do my bidding. My answers came and much more. Revelations of what certain verses meant poured in as fast as my questions were formed.
The peace I had always longed for filled the hollows in my soul, and joy that knew no bounds came in billows that rolled over my heart. All the turmoil left and in its place was deep gratitude for all the suffering and heartache.
This gratitude seemed to intensify the wonderful feelings, which were far beyond what I could have ever imagined. The next two weeks especially, I remained alert for the voice within and kept asking questions. All my household chores were done quickly and smoothly. The babies napped together for the first time while I kept tuned to heaven.
Within two weeks I had sloughed off so much former doctrine that I knew I could never be satisfied in the old mold, nor could I ever turn back. This continued in greater or lesser degree for five years but I wondered who else knew these truths and who taught them.
One day something came from somewhere advertising Saint Germain's Studies in Alchemy. I had to have these lessons! A burst of joy swept through me and I sent for them. Enter The Summit Lighthouse. My name was added to the cards in the shoe box! That was 1966.
Prior to this time, I had felt keenly I was to help heal the nations - but how? What a joy to learn there was a way and the violet flame could do it! I was learning to think differently and pray differently but the decrees really began to make the difference in me.
The verification of all I had learned was found in the Pearls of Wisdom and the Keepers of the Flame Lessons. I cried, I hugged them to me and kissed them. How wonderful to have the tools, a source from which I could be fed and have progressive revelation - and the details that I wanted and needed!
After many years I still find so much that expands my understanding of all phases of the Teachings. Much that is given transcends what I have learned, which keeps me reading and rereading to make sure I have not missed or forgotten a key or not fulfilled some request.
The blessings continue and there is no question in this mind and heart that the Messengers are who they say they are. Long ago I knew there would be a message and a Messenger for these days, and no one fits that picture like Mother.
Thank you so much, Ascended Masters, for the awareness of your presence - and, Mother, for your courage to continue in spite of all. And thank you, Staff - your perfection in transcribing never ceases to amaze me.